Saturday, August 8, 2009

Weaker than David

I have been feeling my weaknesses this week.  A lot.  I have been noticing how very very weak I am, and how very very often I am struck down.  But somehow the enemy is not taking my hope.

I was taking a walk yesterday, talking to God, and I said, "You know what God?  I feel like I'm this little 5 year old kid fighting against a 100-year trained expert swordsman, and all he has to do is barely touch me with one finger, and I fall over.  But then I just jump right back up with all the energy and excitement in the world, exclaiming, 'You can't beat me!  I'm gonna win, I'm gonna win!'  And yet I look like a fool because it just keeps happening.  He keeps pushing me on over with no more than a tap."
Well, sweetheart, that's what you are.  Remember David and Goliath?
"Okay, God, but David actually defeated Goliath.  I'm not defeating him."
No, but it only takes one stone - the right one in the right place - and he will go down.
"So what am I supposed to do for now?  Because I kind of feel like an idiot just jumping up again and again."
Don't stop, don't lose hope.  Keep doing it.  One of these days, he will go down.

I don't know if that makes sense to you, but it brought me just enough strength to do it all over again today.  I'll just keep on believing God, keep on fighting, even with what little strength and training and ability I have.   In my weakness, his power is made perfect.  O, I need that to show up and be BIG right now.

2 weeks left.  And I am feeling worn down most days.  But I have been asking for at least one piece of hope to be revealed each and every day.  And I know that he is faithful, firm to the end.  So I shall be too.


  1. I'm praying for you, David. Unlike David, however, you have a lot of people who believe in your power through the Spirit. Everyone expects you to win, because we believe that He will do it through you.

    Love you my roommate.

  2. It's crazy how God uses us in our weaknesses. I pray that in the times of being worn down, God's supernatural strength fills you up. You are bringing so much spiritual direction to those ladies. God is working through you in such huge ways. I was blessed by you in such a short time, and I know it is because God's love shines so brightly through you. Praying for you!!!